| | After this year, i am going to be 24. According to 十二生肖, this year is supposed to be my本命年. To me, this is indeed true; a lot of things are going to happen this year( i believe) and the next 12 years are going to be my golden age.
When i look back, i found it very interesting to see how my past was in terms of 12 years.
when i was born to 12 years old, it was my birth period. I didn't know anything and i was eager to learn basically everything. Things were simple and my world was just full of emptiness, until i went to secondary school( i went to secondary school at 1998). There were nothing to talk about at this time because i was too young to do anything.
When i was between 12-24 years old, i personally consider it my dark age. During the first 6 years, i was able to make some good friends, if not the best. In addition, i started to know how the world looks like and how does it work. I really felt like i had everything i wanted at that time, until i went to the US with the A. For the second part of this age, which is not over yet, is full of enlightenment. Basically i gave up everything i loved and hated to have a fresh beginning, simply because i knew from the bottom of my heart that the life i had was twisted; i knew that my life was messed up and all i had were just delusions. I needed to begin a new life, to be a phoenix; built a very nice nest of myrrh and ignited it without hesitation such that i can grow better, stronger and more.
Now i have gotten that far, I still believe that it was a just decision. My life after US wasn't so pleasant, but it was essential, no matter how i looked at it now. The saddest part of it is, no matter what my choice was, my suffrage was inevitable; it's just either now or later. Also i lost everything and i do not know if i can get it back; in fact, i don't even know i can earn the things i had before back. Still, i have no regret for the decision i made; i am very certain that i am a better person than i was before and it couldn't be done without having a new beginning. Well, i do have one thing that i regret; if i chose not to go to US, I am 100% sure i would be happier........
Anyway, that's my life. The next 12 years is going to define who i am for the rest of my life. I am going to show everyone how good(or bad) i am; i will do everything the best i ever can to prove that i am worthy to be alive. After that, we shall see what is going to happen; like an idiom say, I do the best, god do the rest.
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